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don't remember joy when I was a boy but didn't the days run onthey
trashed him as a baby the crazies alcoholic mother demeaning father, a
sadistic elder brother embedded needles in his feet when the family finished
whooping him the world whipped him too and wasn't Mother Nature unkind in
public and private ways pain ago-go
the the then the last years Dee
started to stutter
a clever man as smart a soul as ever I've known except
unable to take care for himself ah but that's not a poem that's just a moan and
didn't the days run on
everywhere in my house there are things Dee did
for me or gave me so much I always miss a bunch if I give the tour
so
many people that Darrell touched were touched quite deeply
I remember
after his last haul back from the coast Buck raving waving a giant
umbrella in the storming park yelling at the sky begging to die
later
he complained "my social worker doesn't understand the difference
between wanting to die and suicide"
now he's gone and I've
tears for a friend ah didn't the days run run | |